dum spiro spero
So, obviously I have some stuff going on. But devoting VALUABLE JOURNAL SPACE to it won't make it go away, so instead, how about a
+ GTL:
- Alan and I made peanut butter bars. They were delicious!
- It's so much fun to see Alma crawling and sitting and getting into everything
- Taught a good class this morning
- Going to get my concealed handgun license
- Alan loves his job
- I'm not very far away from getting my AA, and then I can decide what to do from there
- He will keep me in perfect peace if my mind is steadfast and I trust in Him
- Ashley Marie is going to be doing teacher training this summer!
- I bought a new Bible and it's super portable
- Bombarding Alan with Linkin Park lyrics
- Bought some new clothes
- If I, who am evil, know how to give Alma good gifts, how much more will God give me His Spirit?
- Michael and Alex are going to stay in the Foundations group via Skype
- My powder-blue toenails
- Learning so much from my study of John
- My friends at yoga
- Practicing this with Alan!
- My eternal destiny is secure no matter what; no one can snatch me out of His hand
- All the scripture memory I've been doing in my discipleship group
- Maria's grad party - got to spend some time in the hot tub, chat with some acquaintances, and reconnect with Maria
- CNB and her random but timely encouragement
- My green mother's day roses...and my first mother's day
- Sweet gift from my MIL
- The first family photo my family has taken in a decade
- God is God, and I am not
- Getting to see old friends in my dreams
- The cats I saw in the front yard
- The giant slugs who come out after it rains
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I've been holding in, not holding on
I finally went to advising and got my degree plan. The good news is that I only have four remaining credits before I have my AA. The bad news is that one of those credits is math. As longtime readers may know, my math literacy is something like Cat In the Hat level. It's not a question of whether or not I will have to take a remedial course before I can get that credit; it's a question of how many remedial courses I will have to take. Bleh. On the plus side, here's the perfect chance for me to learn how to gain math literacy--so to speak. And hey, I could potentially have something to show for all my time in school soon!
We were shown our first house yesterday. It was definitely not the house for us, but it was still fun to be looking for an actual house, you know, to buy.
I think Alma's about to have another growth spurt. She's chubbing up again and sleeping more than usual. She's also hyper-mobile, scooting around like a pro and getting into EVERYTHING. MD told me once that I would wish for the days when I could put her down and know that she was going to stay where I put her. Naturally, she was right.
We also...uh...kind of cut Alma's hair ourselves, badly. Okay, I can't let Alan take the blame here; *I* was the one who wielded the offending scissors. Fortunately, she looks super cute anyway because she's just that adorable.
Two developments that will only interest other parents: (1) For the past week or two, Alma has slept every night in her crib. (2) We've begun weaning.
I'm excited about my first mother's day tomorrow. It's going to be a sweet, relaxing day.
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shine like gold in the air of summer
I've been making an conscious effort to improve my teaching. I'm researching the postures and learning more about anatomy outside of class so that I can bring extra knowledge to my classes. I'm working hard to remember all my students' names and to take note of their skill level so that I can give them appropriate direction--so that a 500 class student and a 15 class student can both take the same class and both come away feeling like they were pushed just the right amount. I'm trying to interact with them outside of class and remember the interactions.
To an extent, I think it's working. Aside from the great feedback I've gotten on the survey forms, I also had a guy come up to me a few days ago and tell me that I was one of the two best teachers this studio has ever had. Wow.
There's a situation I have intentionally not shared here (because it involves someone else) that had been troubling me for a long time. Recently, the other party involved reached out to me and we were able to resolve our differences. This is HUGE to me.
Avengers. It was amazing. Also amazing was the crowd with whom we saw it (the Prentices, the Scholzs, and Cameron and Daniel), who happened to be the same crowd we partied with Friday night...the second party of Friday night, that is. We've been busy. Also we have great friends.
If you are so inclined, we could use prayer for the following:
- My depression/anxiety. It sucks! That's all.
- Sunstone is changing some stuff on the corporate side and I need to look long and hard at my availability and decide how many hours I want to work.
- Houses. We want to buy one.
Also, taken from a Cracked article:
This is something everybody should understand about depression, by the way. Tell me you haven't at least once heard somebody say, "I refuse to believe it was suicide, I was just out with Mike two weeks ago. He was laughing and joking and eating an entire pizza like it was a video game power-up."
Well, depression works that way. Movies have given us a skewed idea of how it works, because there, when a character enters his "dark period," it's with a montage full of sad music and drinking and moping in dim rooms. Real life isn't like that. Not only do moods fluctuate, but even when you're at your lowest you find yourself in social situations where you're not allowed to show it. If you're in a dark place but can't get out of your nephew's birthday party at Chuck E. Cheese's, you're going to put on a smile for the camera. You feel selfish bringing everybody else down. You put on a cheerful mask.
From 2 Chronicles 20:12:
Our God, will you not judge them? For we have no power to face this vast army that is attacking us. We do not know what to do, but our eyes are on you.
Also, Judges 6:14:
Go in the strength you have...am I not sending you?
I like that. I don't know what to do, but my eyes are on Him. I may be from the weakest tribe, but I only need the strength that I have. If that's enough, then I'm in good shape.
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my love has concrete feet
Babies are most tired during the times when they're growing a lot...I hope it works the same way with emotional fatigue and emotional growth.
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she gives a smile when the pain comes
+ GTL:
- After this week I will have taught 20 classes. Wow!
- Teaching is becoming more and more second nature
- Alan found a new job so quickly that I didn't even have time to blog about him being laid off
- I like my new hat
- "Being sick allows you to check out of life. Getting well again means you have to check back in." -Portia de Rossi
- Not to jinx it, but I think I'm starting to do better on this med combo
- Dr. Shumate has called several times to check up on me
- Planning a weekend trip in June to visit Katie and Elvis (and go canoeing!)
- My sweet Alma-bear, who's so happy and talkative
- Our Foundations group
- It's been nice having Alan home this week
- Great, GREAT co-workers and students
- Mark 15:15--how dangerous it is to be a people-pleaser!
- Organizing stuff
- I get to teach my first Water class tomorrow
- The cute cowgirl onesie Alan's mom made for Alma
- Law & Order: SVU
- Email correspondence with K
- The reread
- Working hard for the money
- Using survey feedback to improve my teaching
- Looking at houses is exciting
- Making mixes
- Alma's pretty blue earrings
- Chocolate chip cookies from the bakery
- My discipleship group
- I've done my prayer calendar every day for over a week
- God always gets me through
- "Remember when you told me to have a nice life?" "I'm glad you listened to me."
- Meeting Elisa for a Starbucks date soon
- Consulting with designers
- Pretty weather
- Alma's giggle, and when she smiles so big that her pacifier falls out
- Alan's kisses
- I get to pup-sit Bebe!
- Alan's discipline in running and school
- A clean house
- A God who doesn't change and loves me eternally
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