hey sir, this is your last letter
hey sir, this is your last letter
things I want you to know,
or things that I just want to say:
1.
I still love you and we both know it
otherwise this wouldn't hurt so much
I think I will always love you;
ever since we first exchanged blows
two years ago, I've loved you always
even when I hated you, like now
2.
I blame you for a lot of things
some that aren't your fault
like how I flirt with everyone now
to prove that someone could still want me
or things that are your fault
like how my favorite rings are gone
because you never gave them back
3.
I remember how you told me
that when we weren't dating
and you were with other girls
you would find yourself thinking of me
I perversely hope it happens now
I will never have your heart,
but I will settle for a spot in your memory
4.
I must grudgingly admit
that she is pretty and smart
and that you make each other happy
objectively, I know that I should
quietly distance myself from you
If it is possible for there to be
more distance between us
5.
you said a lot of things
that turned out to be not-true
but somehow, I think you meant them once
so how can I be angry?
it's hard not to throw your words at you
and force you to remember that
you did love me once
6.
I'm not sorry I met you
okay, sometimes I am
but the times with you were happy times
everything reminds me of them
you taught me a lot
you changed me a lot
you took a lot of me with you
7.
I doubt you will ever read this
and that's probably for the best
this is an oddly-written letter
and I hope I've said everything
because it's the last one I'm writing